Sick

We are all sick. Jacob slept in until 10:00 today so I knew even before he got up it would be a hard day with him being sick. He had a fever of 103.3 which is already better after only 1 dose of Motrin. He seems to be feeling much better too. We just can't let that motrin wear off completely. We visited with friends last night which was so nice. It's been 2 years since we last saw them and we've each had a baby since last time. It was so fun to watch Jacob and Kelton play together. They are only 2 1/2 months apart. Jacob was really good about sharing his toys, I was really impressed. I have to keep an eye on him because I just found out the little boy, Jack, that I babysit might have RSV! So now we have to watch him more closely to make sure he doesn't get worse. He also has 2 ear infections so I'm keeping my eye on Jacob's ears as well. Poor little Jack. Tonight my brother and his finace come back into town and we'll have Christmas with them at my parents. Tomorrow is crazy, as long as everyone is feeling up to it. We have brunch with Dan's dad and stepmom, lunch with my extended family ( I get to see my cousin who is pregnant and I haven't seen her since september and we are really close!!!), and then dinner time at Dan's uncles house. It's going to be way to busy. Sunday will be relaxing. My Aunt and Uncle and cousin are stopping in for a visit and we're excited to spend the day with them. New year's eve will be with my brother and his fiance at our house and then new years day back at my parents. I can't think of anything else. Then life gets back to normal and we start planning our little boy's second birthday party!!! I can't believe he'll be 2 soon! WOW! I can't wait until God blesses us with another. I know it will happen in his time! Sorry no new pictures. I'll get some tonight at my parents house.

Short

I just wanted to post that Christmas this year was great. Despite a few sick people ( now Dan and I are both sick!!!) everyone had a good day. Jacob made out really well and was polite most of the day. He said please when asking for help and thank you when anyone helped him or gave him a gift. He's such a good kid. He had a few minor melt downs but nothing bad. It was a lot for him to take in all in one day. This morning he played with all his new toys with the exception of his tool bench which my dad will bring over this week because it wont fit in our car. He even got a power wheels! We haven't taken it out of the box yet but probably will tonight. I'll finish with a few pictures of our precious boy.

Christmas is coming

I am finally getting into the Christmas spirit. It got a little delayed this year with all that has happened, but we're getting there. I spent some time yesterday making cookies and listening to Christmas music! That was a lot of fun, and very yummy! I have decided not to worry about loosing weight until after the holidays! Today I wrapped most of the presents. I still have Jacob's to do but I'd live to get different paper. I know he's too young still to make any connections with wrapping paper, but I still want to.

I wanted to share with you all something I have learned. God has taught me to really be thankful for what we have. Not that I wasn't thankful before, but I appreciate it even more now. I get much less stressed about little things and much less frustrated with Jacob when he doesn't listen. I've learned to pick my battles with him even better and I hug him every chance I can. I could never have gotten through all this with out him. I've also learned once again that God never gives us more than we can handle. I thought I couldn't never handle loosing a child. That was one of my biggest fears. God's getting us through it. I think I got a slight glimpse of what Mary may have felt. I'll never fully understand that but I have felt that pain of loss.

I have spent so much more time with family the past 3 weeks than I usually do. We always try to see them all when we can but we've made it more of a point to spend as much time with them as possible. We choose not to go to our companies Christmas parties, but instead we spent the weekend with my parents and brother and his fiance.

I don't remember is I shared this on here or not. Dan bought me an awesome necklace. It's two baby feet. They are the size of a 10 week old fetus. Our baby was around 10 weeks so they are about the same size and Jaidon's little feet. I wear it every day. It reminds me that he ( or she ) is with us always. And even though he ( or she ) is not here on earth with us he is still celebrating Christmas with us because he is in our hearts.

It's hard to believe that after Christmas and new years we have to start preparing for Jacob's second birthday! I need to get the invitations to his party so I can get them out in the beginning of January. I can't believe he is almost 2! Time has flown. He is really turning into a great kid too. He is so polite. He says please and thank you most of the time with out being told to. We're now working on excuse me. I am so excited to see his face on Christmas morning. He is getting so many great toys and I know he'll be excited. We are also teaching him the meaning of Christmas. He knows that it's about baby Jesus. That's about it though. We're working on it. I'm hoping we can get him to sit still and we'll read the Christmas story on Christmas eve.

Well I suppose I've rambled enough. If you're reading this thank you for listening.

Just some photos!

Update

Everything went pretty well. Initially the surgery went really well and I was feeling pretty good. Saturday night things got a little bad but the doctor called in some medicine for me and my wonderful husband went to two different 24 hour pharmacies to get it for me. I woke him up around 5:00am in horrible pain and bleeding really bad. I'm glad the medicine worked and we didn't have to go to the hospital. Dan and I are working through all this and I think we are doing pretty well. We both know God is in control and everything is going to work out according to his plan.
We were able to spend a lot of time with family this weekend. Jacob loved that. I think he ate too much yesterday and then played way to hard. He vomited in his crib last night making a huge mess for me to wake up to this morning. Needless to say he got a bath first thing...and he was not happy about that at all. I then had to clean his room and wash everything in his crib. Including his 4 stuffed animals he can not sleep with out! 2 of them are still not dry because they had to be hand washed and air dried. He had trouble getting to sleep but he finally did and I think he'll sleep for a while. I need to stay off my feet for a few hours while he is asleep even though there is so much I need to do. I can feel the effected of this morning already. My body is less forgiving these days.
I have another appointment next week. This is when we'll find out how long we need to wait before trying again. We are not ready to start trying yet, but we definitely will in time. I think we were hoping for around the end of February or March sometime. We'll see how things go for that.
Jacob's new favorite thing in the car is to go up and down hills. He actually asks for them now. He'll say "Hills??" or "up or down, up or down!" He doesn't understand that we can't make them happen. It's so cute. He had so much fun with "guncle Ray" this weekend. He didn't want them to leave. He was asking for "guncle Ray" and "Aunt Me" this morning. I told him they'll be back next week but it's hard to him to understand that too. Poor kid.
I should probably go and put my feet up for a little while.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow is my surgery and I'm a little scared. I know everything is in God's hands and I am trying to rest in knowing that. It's hard because everything I have prayed for recently God has chosen the opposite for me. I was praying for an early surgery time and it wont be until 10 or 10:30. I was really hoping for closer to 8 so I'd be home sooner and I wouldn't have to go so long with out eating! Anyway, just pray for us. Tomorrow will be hard and I really just want it to be over and to move on.

Jacob in the snow

Well it was only a small amount of snow but we had to take him out. He had fun throwing tiny snowballs. It was so cute. Here are the pictures.
This last picture is the result of mommy not paying enough attention to Jacob. We was coloring in the family room while I was getting dinner started....
That's our dishwasher with purple crayon on it. Good thing it came off with no problems!

Jaidon Cruz

We have decided to name the baby Jaidon Cruz. It would have been good for a boy or girl. Say a little prayer for baby Jaidon today. We know that this little child is in the presence of our Savior. I just want him or her to know that we loved them. They will forever remain in our hearts.

The worst day of my life

This will be short. Today we found out we lost the baby. It sucks! I had an ultrasound and unfortunately there was no heartbeat. There were no signs so we were completely taken off guard. Please keep us all in your prayers. I will have a D&E on thursday since I was 10 weeks and I just can bear then thought of waiting for it all to pass on it's own. Since this happened so recently we have no idea how long it could take. At least now I'll know.

Jury duty, snow, and strange packages

So I will be excused once again from Jury duty. I am sure they will try again in a few years and once again I will probably have to be excused due to childcare reasons. Oh well. I least I don't have to worry about it now.

It snowed this weekend and it's snowing right now. I had to check the forecast because it's coming down pretty good and already sticking! We're only supposed to get a coating to and inch so I imagine it will stop soon. I love snow, but I didn't want to get too much because I hate driving in it. I have to go and take my last exam for this semester tonight and I can't put it off so I have to go regardless of the weather. Jacob was loving just looking out the window watching the snow fall. I always love doing that so it was fun to share that with him. He still doesn't have boots so I don't know if he'll go out in it today or not. It's there's not a lot I'll throw on some warm clothes and a couple pair of socks and older shoes and let him check it out. He wasn't walking yet for snow last year so he hasn't really experienced it.

Yesterday we got a really strange package in the mail. It was addressed to our address with my name on it. It said it was a free gift from direct TV. We don't have direct TV so we were suspicious. I immediately checked our credit card and bank account online since we had someone steel our credit card number recently. Everything was fine. Dan finally noticed there was a phone number for who it was supposed to go to on the box. Darn, because it was a portable DVD player. If we don't reach this person then we will keep it...Merry Christmas to us! We will try to reach them and see if they were expecting anything to come. It was supposed to go to a PO box but there was no box listed so somehow it came to us. There was a sticker with our address on it next to the original address label. Oh well. We want to do what is right and try to get it to who it belongs to. We would love to keep it, but we know that is not right unless the owner can not be reached. Maybe God will reward us for doing what is right someday.

No pictures to post today. We just found our camera. If I take Jacob out after his nap I'll be sure to take lots of pictures and maybe even video!